I was thinking about the reason, why I feel so much love for Shah Rukh Khan. I often did this since I “discovered” this amazing man. It is not easy to find the right words for it and it is not easy to explain to others who do not feel the same. If you have to explain it or find words for it, there is something wrong you might say and actually you are right, but I still will give it a try. Being from Austria I haven’t had a childhood experience with his movies or him. I saw him for the first time on television in 2003 (K3G dubbed in German - *eeks* lol). A friend of mine said, you must watch this – it is so different and amazing and this green eyed good looking guy is there. Well I did – this good looking green eyed guy was good looking for me, but I thought – nice but boring!!! Then he took the picture of his movie step-brother out of his bag – and I was immediately at the edge of my seat thinking – who is this? – what amazing eyes!!! Then I was impatiently waiting for him to enter the screen. And then there he was – a man with an aura and a charisma I could even feel through the TV – and I didn’t have heard his own voice by then! I was immediately totally hooked! The best thing was, that there was a Bollywood week on the channel ARTE at the same time – so I was looking for his name and found out there will be two other movies with him, in original version with subs. Dil Se and KKHH. All I can say is, after hearing him and watching these complete different movies I already was in love hahahaha. I was searching the internet and recognized what a huge star he is. And since then I followed him. I entered a forum and I even had the chance to meet him several time, even if I always was too shy to really “bother” him. I just gave him stuff and so on. He has this ability to make you think for this few seconds or minutes he is there only for you. Even for a realistic person that I am normally. And being an extra in KANK was one of the best things I was allowed to experience. So why do I feel that love or strong feelings for him? I think it is because he is normal, often out of this world, humble, sweet, edgy, saying wonderful things, saying stupid things sometimes, he is a husband, a father, he seem to be so near even if he is so far away, he for sure has his flaws, but this imperfection makes him so perfect, at least for me. He makes you feel important, he makes you feel, you know him, what of course you don’t. A friend of mine said “he makes my heart smile” – yes he does make my heart and soul smile as well. He is a constant shining light in my life and I do not even feel awkward about it even if people think I am awkward hahaha. He is him – that is why I love him. And I mean really love him without being obsessed or strange with it. And besides all this emotional talk – he is a damn beautiful man – I would lie if I do not admit this haha. I hope this all makes sense for you. Thank you for "listening"